Clarity

Clarity, clarity, clarity. The one thing I am always praying for and the one thing I always seem to be lacking is clarity. Clarity on what is next, clarity on life, clarity in every area of who I am. I pray constantly and I know He is guiding me, but must it always be a mystery? Does God at some point tell you out right what is next? If He does tell you whats next, will He follow that up with instructions on how to get there? I know that He guides my every step, but I am still have tendence to question and wonder. What does tomorrow hold?? Am I making the best choices?? Am I truly being led by God??
The fact of the matter is I have very little clarity on what tomorrow holds. I have no clue about a great many things in life, but I know He is with me. I know He has kept me safe and rescued me from some pretty huge messes. I know that clarity will come in His time and that He will not be rushed. I know that whatever He has for me He will provide for. I know that He is ok with my questions. He knows I am not great with suprises and I like plans. He has the best in store for me. I am just suppose to trust and follow one day at a time.

Monday...woot woot!

What a great week full of amazing times.
266. Movie night before flying to Portland
267. Arriving home to a lunch with family
268. Coffee with my BFF

269. A few days at the beach

270. Jim and Patty's coffee with Jenn and Elli





271. Dessert party at Greg and Mindy's


272. God building my faith in the area of provision
273. An amazing service at TrueLife
274. Movie night with Steph
275. An incredible time reading the word and knowing God speaks we just have to listen.

Gate 41

I am waiting to board the plane to Portland. I have not slept at all. I am sitting here excited to be home, but wondering what in the world is going on in my life here. I am in a time of transition and finding my place. I am figuring out my role at IHOP-KC and many other things too. I am learning how to trust God even when it is difficult. I am learning when to speak up and when to hold back. I am learning that no matter how old you are life is a mystery. I am not sure what will happen when I return to KC in two weeks, but I know that God will show me. He always speaks clearly in His timing.
Lord~
In every area of my life bring clarity.
Amen

Multitude Monday

It has been a quiet week. Most of my close friends are home and I have had a lot of time alone. I have had a lot of time to seek God and lay all my emotions, prayers, hopes and dreams before Him. He is always there, He always listens and in the end still always loves. He encourages and He corrects. I am thankful for the moments that are just "us". There is nothing better than time with God.
251. Alone time with Jesus
252. Long drives filled with worship music, tears, prayer and breakthrough
253. Reading my bible by the lake
254. The search for good coffee
255. Breaking onto roofs
256. Coffee and long talks with Sonja.
257. Talking to my best friend
258. Calling my sisters and mom all the time...it is pretty fun:)
259. Laughing so hard you cry
260. A text from Jenn telling me Elli said "Jesuh"
261. Long walks with friends

262. Fish tacos with friends

263. Going to Portland
264. Tax Money and those who provided it
265. Finishing taxes.

27 Movies

A friend decided that it would be a good idea to write down my 27 top movies in 27 minutes. It was pretty difficult, but I did it. Here are my results.
1. Roman Holiday
2. Little Woman
3. P and P
4. An Affair to Remember
5. The Glenn Miller Story
6. Anne of Green Gables
7. Sense and Sensibility
8. Two Weeks Notice
9. The Patriot
10. Woman of the Year
11. Corrina Corrina
12. Rock A Bye Baby
13. Seven Brides For Seven Brothers
14. Sabrina
15. Singing in the Rain
16. Guess Who’s coming to Dinner
17. Holiday Inn
18. The Wedding Planner
19. Sleepless In Seattle
20. Father of the Bride
21. The Godfather
22. StepMom
23. You’ve Got Mail
24. Black Sheep
25. Monkey Business
26. The Preachers Wife
27. The Village (I don’t care what anyone says I like this movie and most of his others too!)
It is pretty fun. You should try it too. Just take your age and write that many movies in that many minutes. See what you come up with.

27

I am not a big party girl. I never have been really. The perfect birthday always involves my family and a few friends eating dinner at my mom and dad's. Even though I turned 27 yesterday it was my first birthday away from family. I was not sure how I was going to do, since on Easter (last week) I was near tears most of the day. Luckily God has blessed me in this season with incredible friends who have quickly become like family to me. I may be far from home, but I am very blessed with people who care about me.
236.Glow Worms. I loved them as a kid and getting one as an adult is just hilarious.

237. Grasshopper Pie

238. Amazing Friends



239. A midnight "happy birthday" text from my cousin and my sister Jenn
240. Calling my mom half a dozen times in one day and she still answers the phone
241. Watching a movie that is so weird you end up thinking about it the rest of the night.
242. Talking about what God is doing with friends
243. Silly texts during the worlds most boring class
244. Ending up at a hospital when looking for a coffee shop...good ol' Antioch
245. Finding good coffee in KC.
246. Song dedications all the way to lunch
247. Knowing that only great things come out of time with the Lord
248. Elli stealing Jenn's phone and dialing my number.
249. My dad being the first to call me on my birthday
250. The goodness of God. He always knows just what we need.

Why Am I Here?

I am entering yet another new season. I am done with my internship and now I am in the process of becoming full time staff at IHOP. One of the things they teach us in Partner Development (fund raising class) is that you must clearly communicate your life vision and why you are doing what you are doing. This has really caused me to stop and think. What am I called to? Why am I in Missouri? What is the big picture?
What I know is this at 16 God called me out. I was bound within myself and He came and set me free. In that moment He gave me Jeremiah 1:5 and I knew I would one day go to the nations as a voice for the Lord. As I grew older I began to think this calling was insane and would never happen, but I knew it was the Lords heart for me. I went to bible college, did an internship and served my church waiting for open doors. It was a season of waiting and learning how to listen.
When I moved to IHOP in September I knew I was one step closer to what I was called to do. IHOP-KC is a ministry that passionatly pursues the voice of the Lord for this time and this generation. During my time planted in the prayer room I have grown very confident in hearing the Lord. I know He is speaking and I know He is using my voice to communicate. I believe that as I serve this house I will grow in the prophetic and eventually go to the nations. I know my voice will be used to communicate Gods heart for justice in the "END-TIMES."
My heart is to be planted deep in prayer and in the word that I cannot be swayed. I know I am choosing a path others will call crazy, but it is right. I am so sure that this is what God has set me apart for. I was always meant to be different and this is just the beginning of a great journey. I will serve the House of Prayer and go WHEREVER He calls me to. Yes, this is just the beginning.

He Knows

Psalm 37:3-7a Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on his faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And justice as the noonday. Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.
Whatever God has planned for me it is good. I may not know what comes next, but He always does. I will delight in who He is and He will guide my steps.
~Thanks~
213. backyard camping
214. Peace when I am not sure what is going on.
215. Confidence in God
216. knowing who I serve
217. making sushi with friends
218. Texts that lighten the mood of a very boring class
219. Soy Chai
220. A new phone
221. A friends testimony of provision
222. Confidence that God provides for me, even when I don't see it.
223. Early airport runs that result in great talks
224. new books
225. Music, Jesus and Journals
226. Expectation for the future
227. Faith for what I do not see
228. A list of what I believe God can and will do this year
229. Watching UP with friends
230. Hearing Elli give me kisses on the phone
231. Talking to Malachi just long enough for him to say "I love you and miss you auntie Katie"
232. Talking to my mom and sisters daily. I really love them
233. Exciting birthday plans
234. My bible. It really has become my life line and my encouragement. This week it has kept me focused on what really matters and the fact that I am so so blessed.
235. Great church on Easter

Silent

In life people can say some pretty rude things. I have been on the receiving end a some intense rumors and I always want to defend myself. When I hear anything that is untrue or remotely insulting I want to jump up and say "That is not me!" Is that the right reaction though? Lately I have been faced with the challenge of being silent. Thinking back on what Christ did for us one thing is very clear, He did not defend His name. He was confident in what the Father had for Him and He knew it was only the Father that could defend Him.
I want to be like Christ. I want to rest in the knowledge of God as my defender. I want to let truth reign and not focus on the negative. I want to be a person of reliance on God. I want to wake up and know that no matter what anyone says my identity is sealed, my future is bright, and I am His. So say what you will about me, I know who I am. I know the truth and that really is what sets me free.

Deep Breath

There are times in life when the day to day is all consuming. It is hard to see past the worries of right now and know God has a plan. When you are in this place I recommend one thing. Get out of town. I am serious! Hop in your car and drive out of town. Take a hike with friends. Enjoy Gods creation. Breathe deeply. Most of all take a moment as you stand outdoors and realize God cares about every detail in His creation including you. He has worked it all out so stop worrying and just be where you are.