Movement

Life keeps moving forward even when we are not ready. It takes turns and twists that we don't expect. Even in the dullest of moments it is changing. At moments it feels like a whirl wind. At times the change is a gentle breeze, but either way you are moving. Knowing this to be true I constant question what direction I am headed.
I want my life to move forward in the direction of the Lord, yet I often fear that I will mess up. I am so desperate to please God, but I am not always sure what that looks like. How can I honor Him in changing and moving of life? How can I be all that he wants me to be? I am often overwhelmed with not knowing. I just want Him to say, "well done" and not "what did you do?" I want my life to be pleasing.
I realize that the only way to fully please Him is to live for Him and to understand that at times we all fail. I am not going to get it right every time. I am going to stumble, but I know that my love for Him will keep me getting back up. I know that every movement s one of faith, but that God will not cause me to stumble. I am sure He is with me and I am sure that whether a whirl wind or a breeze, He will be there to guide the movement of my life.

Friends:)

I have had a frustrating few weeks that have left me at times feeling alone. As I look at my life though I see that I am truly blessed. God knows the right people for our lives we just have to trust Him. Here is a small glimpse of me and some friends having fun.
296. Bad hair cuts that make you laugh until you cry. (Julia and Me)









297. Wendy's...don't ask (Stephen)


298. Peachwave after Wendy's...yummy(Megan and Julia)




299. Cheesecake Factory (Me and Megan)

300. Waffle Night!! (David, Me, Roxy and Tom)



301. Movie night with my small group girls
302. Fly killing contest at work. I won!!
303. Song texts with Jenn
304. Steph hacking my Facebook account
305. Gods provision in EVERY area
306. Talking with my Dad. He is a really great Dad
307. My bible and journal
308. Courage I didn't even know I had
309. Seeing Karate Kid with my roommate.
310. God listening to me and speaking peace and comfort when I need it most.

Run

After months of collecting dust I threw on my running shoes and ran yesterday. I ran off the stress I was feeling. I ran off the hurt and pain that was so heavy on my heart. I ran until I could be honest with God about my brokenness. I ran until I could not longer breathe. I left my IPOD and cell phone behind so that I could hear if God decided to speak. What I found on my run was peace.
The truth is life is a very messy business and it comes with grief and pain. It is far from being easy and some days are more difficult than others. Yet, when we know the Lord we should be living in peace. This doesn't mean the pain is gone or any less real, it means that you trust Him to carry it. I am so thankful that I am not alone and that He is always with me. He is my rock and my best friend.

Plans

I am pretty sure my life has never gone according to plan. Once again my plans are crumbling and I am left wondering what the Lord could possibly be doing with my life. I know His plans are good, but what are His plans?? Why am I here (in KC) and what is my purpose?? That has been constantly on my mind the last few weeks. I am not sure I know the answer anymore, but at the same time I know I have a good life. I do not wonder because of circumstances, but out of a desire to fully please the Lord. I want to live a life He is proud of! As I pray through these thoughts one thing is sure, even in my wondering He is near. He speaks when I need Him most, but He also keeps silent so I will learn to trust. I am so sure that He will show me "what now" soon, in the mean time I will sit with my bible, coffee, and journal waiting to hear Him. So if you are a faithful reader of my blog(mom) stick with me as I search out His plans once again.

Thanks:)

Another week has gone by full of the goodness of God! I am so glad I serve such a good God!
286. JOB!!!
287. Coffee with a spiritual "mom"
288. Tears flowing because of an incredible touch from the Lord
289. Watching a really stupid movie with friends and adding our own twists.
290. Talking with my Cousin (Mind-o) of FB... she is pretty amazing
291. Dreams that make me laugh and give direction
292. A day with friends painting (painting isn't my fav, but the conversation was great!)
293. My nephew just wanting to say hi on the phone.
294. Peace... I can never be to thankful for the peace of God
295. The Lord being my "Husband" He is amazing.

JOB

I got a job!! It is true. I am offically starting as a Starbucks barista on Monday. This is such an answer to prayer! This means next week will be full of Starbucks and starting at IHOP. I know it is all going to be good. I can see Gods hand on my life and how He is working everything out. I am the first to admit that I struggle in believing that things will work out, but God has never failed me. I am very thankful for that. Still praying over a few things, but I am pretty sure He has those figured out too:)
Thanks for all the prayers (and to those who support me monthly with $ THANK YOU A TON)

Multitude Monday

It is amazing to me how the Lord always knows what we need when we need it. After a week of job hunting and way to much alone time I was blessed with a unplanned dinner with friends, a reunion with my pal Roxy, girls night and a movie at home. I am very blessed here in KC and it is always good when God reminds me of that fact.
276. housemates new baby Krisalyn (Krissy).
277. Jen and Roxy being back in town. I love my Intro Fam:)
278. Girls movie night turning into us girls laughing so hard we could no longer hear the movie.
279. A new coffee shop to hang out at with a good book
280. My housemates. I am so blessed to live here! They are so sweet and fun!
281. Pam's mom being here and cooking really great food
282. Watching North by Northwest...classic
283. Incredible time in the word and prayer! He knew exactly what I needed to read.
284. I HAVE AN INTERVIEW!! After applying last week I have my first interview tomorrow.
285. The knowledge that God has my life all worked out, even if I don't see it.